Happy new year! I can hardly believe it's 2013. Maybe it's because I was fed that whole Mayan calender thing, but it's just too surreal to be in this year. How do I explain it? They all said the world was gonna end on so & so specific date, you knew it wouldn't, you could guarantee it wouldn't. That date came and went, but now something odd has happened. Every day after that date has this uncertainty. I have this irrational anxiety for 2013 that the world could explode any day now. Yikes!
I had heard about The Price is Right's male model, Rob Wilson a few months back, but only got around to watching the show New Year's Eve. When I saw him showing off that new car, I just couldn't stop smiling. I couldn't have stopped even if I wanted to. But then the weirdest thing happened: I started to cry. Don't get me wrong, he's nice but he's not all that, not to me, anyway. I was crying because in that moment, to see such an iconic show and staple of American entertainment finally use a male model just felt like a sign of how far we've come as a society. I could close my eyes and pretend for a millisecond that our country was perfect. It's the moments like that that make you hopeful for the future.
As for my New Year's resolutions, I'm keeping it simple this time. I wanna be fearless. I'm gonna sing more, go more places, and not let fear of rejection hold me back. Last year I had a laundry list of resolutions that I don't even remember. I think working out was on it, but I'm already hot so what's it matter.
I guess I shouldn't be surprised Rob Kardashian won the poll. I have an idea for the story that I think'll be pretty funny.